This song has brought me so much peace today. I've just been listening to it nonstop on repeat. The high of yesterday's happiness has worn off. The doctors said that it was good for my mom to have spent the day at home, that was before she got really sick tonight though.
I was told today that it is unlikely she will get better.
And it's not just a game
You can't throw me away
I put all I had on the line
And I give and you take
And I played the high stakes
I've won and I've lost
But, I'm fine
Hear me say I'll rise up 'til the end
Hear me say I'll stand up for my friends
And I crash to the ground
And it's just my own sound
I drop in the blink of an eye
I'm colorblind
And your milky way fight
Won't stop my delight
You kick me and lock me away
And it's dark and it's bright
It's your colorful pride that kept me here 9000 days
Hear me say I'll see the sky again
Hear me say I'll die for you my friend
There's a noise in the crowd
But it's just my own shout
I'll stumble I'll fall and I pray
I Hear you say your eyes see green again
In the end we'll lift our golden hands
Yes, we'll spark you and I
We'll be colorblind
And these are the lives we gave
You can't throw me away
I put all I had on the line
And I give and you take
And I played the high stakes
I've won and I've lost
But, I'm fine
Hear me say I'll rise up 'til the end
Hear me say I'll stand up for my friends
And I crash to the ground
And it's just my own sound
I drop in the blink of an eye
I'm colorblind
And your milky way fight
Won't stop my delight
You kick me and lock me away
And it's dark and it's bright
It's your colorful pride that kept me here 9000 days
Hear me say I'll see the sky again
Hear me say I'll die for you my friend
There's a noise in the crowd
But it's just my own shout
I'll stumble I'll fall and I pray
I Hear you say your eyes see green again
In the end we'll lift our golden hands
Yes, we'll spark you and I
We'll be colorblind
And these are the lives we gave
Hear me say I'll rise up 'til the end
Hear me say that I'll stand beside my friends
I won't stay on the floor
I will settle the score
I'll stumble I'll fall and I pray
Hear me say it's time we stop our hate
Eye to eye we see a different fate
Yes we we've conquered the war
With love at the core
I'll stumble I'll fall, but I'll stay
Colorblind.
Hear me say that I'll stand beside my friends
I won't stay on the floor
I will settle the score
I'll stumble I'll fall and I pray
Hear me say it's time we stop our hate
Eye to eye we see a different fate
Yes we we've conquered the war
With love at the core
I'll stumble I'll fall, but I'll stay
Colorblind.
Okay, so as I told William, I was driving home today. And I really, really, really prayed for your mom. I honestly cannot relate, but I know it would absolutely crush and devestate me to have my mom sick. The thought brings a lump in my throat and tears begin to well up in my eyes. You are being really strong though, and I'm glad you got to spend time with her and I am praying that she makes it through, better and stronger than before.
ReplyDeleteI know this is probably dumb and rude and insensitive, but keep your head up. ...I also have no words of comfort. (I'm really bad at this.) So, just be. Be whatever emotion your feeling. Skip school, be sad, be alone, be anything. Don't worry about others - be selfish for you and your mom.
Yeah. I'm praying for you. I should probably stop saying I don't know what to say, and then shut up. So... -shuts up-