It is hard talking to people now. Nobody really knows what to say. I don't have anything new to talk about as they are standing there awkwardly attempting to think up something intelligent to say that will make everything better for me. There isn't a sentence or magical incantation that you can say that will instantly heal all wounds. There isn't a special concoction that you can brew up to make me feel better however I find that coffee does help occasionally. The fact that you are there though, helps. It doesn't make anything even a little bit better but it makes it a damn lot easier.
My dad is at work again and I am home alone. Right now, I am just bored, I need to talk to people. Conduct regular human interactions. To an outsider, it may have appeared that my father and I became really close during this whole fiasco. Me and my dad spent a lot of time together but we didn't really get any closer. We spent time together in public, but when we got home, I went to my room and my dad went somewhere else. I need space to grieve.
I don't like talking to people right now, but it is something that I need. I want to just run away from here and from people but that won't solve any problems.
Bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who Rejoice; Mourn with those who Mourn. Live in Harmony with one another."
-Romans 12
William Hagendoerm. I'm sorry for my absence from commenting here. Because, just like everyone else, I don't know what to say and I live too far away to bring you coffee. I guess, I've been thinking about you and your family a lot, and I hope that you're doing okay. I don't know what to say beyond that. What is happening in your life? What are your plans for next year? What do you like as a mix in for ice cream you would buy at Marble Slab?
ReplyDeleteAlso, I think that sometimes it's okay to run away. I think it shouild happen more actually.