Still waiting for the snow to fallChristmas season has officially started. It is December. I usually like Christmas. I like the hype around it and the excitement and the crisp chill in the air. Going to the mall and buying presents. Visiting family and talking with cousins and aunts and uncles I haven't seen in a while. Having the snow fall slowly outside while you walk around the house in the warmth. Drinking candy cane hot chocolate. Being with my family and my friends and watching people's smiles as they open my presents. Eating dinners and chocolate and baked goods. Time off of school. Skating and playing hockey. Having snowball fights and sitting in hot tubs surrounded by snow.
It doesn't really feel like Christmas at all
Those Christmas lights
Light up the street
Down where the sea and city meet
May all your troubles soon be gone
Oh Christmas lights keep shining on
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I am hoping for a good Christmas this year. That is all I want, a fun holiday. No presents necessary.
Last year I spent all of December in the hospital and I got a two day pass for Christmas Eve and Christmas. The time wasn't like usual Christmas, sure everyone was happy to see me home but I couldn't handle crowds, I couldn't handle big activities. I spent a lot of the days talking quietly and opening presents slowly throughout the day. It didn't have the usual Christmas vibe of excitement.
I'm hoping for this year to be different. I strung Christmas lights along the roof with my dad and brother today. It seemed normal. The way Christmas should be. The way my life should be.
...
Those Christmas lights
Light up the street
Maybe they'll bring her back to me
Then all my troubles will be gone
Oh Christmas lights keep shining on
-Christmas Lights, Coldplay
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