Playing God

Jeremiah 29:11: “‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’”

Thy Kingdom come
Thy will be done
on Earth as it is in Heaven.
But give us this day our daily bread

I am slightly confused see, the 'LORD' says that he has plans for us to prosper and to be happy, for us to live and to be kept safe, he plans to give us hope and a future. 
So far the only thing that he has given me is hope.  But he took that away too along with my mom and my best friends.
You can probably guess that I am angry.  Angry at God for toying with my mothers health  before yanking it completely away from us.  


People who 'play god' mess with other peoples lives and see how messed up they can make it.  I never understood that expression until now.
 

Alone

It is hard talking to people now.  Nobody really knows what to say.  I don't have anything new to talk about as they are standing there awkwardly attempting to think up something intelligent to say that will make everything better for me.  There isn't a sentence or magical incantation that you can say that will instantly heal all wounds.  There isn't a special concoction that you can brew up to make me feel better however I find that coffee does help occasionally.  The fact that you are there though, helps.  It doesn't make anything even a little bit better but it makes it a damn lot easier.

My dad is at work again and I am home alone.  Right now, I am just bored, I need to talk to people. Conduct regular human interactions.  To an outsider, it may have appeared that my father and I became really close during this whole fiasco.  Me and my dad spent a lot of time together but we didn't really get any closer.  We spent time together in public, but when we got home, I went to my room and my dad went somewhere else.  I need space to grieve. 

I don't like talking to people right now, but it is something that I need.  I want to just run away from here and from people but that won't solve any problems.

Bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who Rejoice; Mourn with those who Mourn. Live in Harmony with one another."
-Romans 12

"I've told you all this so that trusting me, you will be unshakable and assured, deeply at peace. In this godless world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart! I've conquered the world." -John 16:33

I know your in peace

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